The year 2023 is upon us and my GAWD I hope it’s better than 2022. With a few very notable exceptions in the form of my wedding, my honeymoon, a visit from my USA-based father, a trip to London for my best friend’s 30th, moving into our new home in Arklow and the addition of …
One of the important items in my multi-step plan to beat this spell of depression is getting back into counselling. I had been on a waiting list for about three months but now I’m three sessions in and it’s completely knocked me on my ass. The wait I don’t make very much money in general …
My quest for joy continues and I’m happy to report that, despite some real ups and downs along the way, I’m starting to find joy in an old love: D&D. D&D never quite made it to the list of three key things I wanted to do more of as I navigate this depressive episode, but …
If I’m not mistaken, today is already shaping up to be a better day than yesterday; the pain in my head has basically disappeared and I am cautiously optimistic. But it seems like a good time to give some backstory on what it is that I’m physically feeling. Cut back to August 2020 It was …
A head injury, a college dropout and the physical manifestation of depression Read More »
Through writing these Confessions, I’ve noticed some recurring themes which, in themselves are not harmful, but collectively and accumulatively, can be truly toxic. Mindful writing So lately I’m trying to be more mindful of what I’m writing here. I know that’s not really the point; this is supposed to be a place of guilt-free imperfect …
I’m trying not to be a cheerleader of toxic productivity Read More »
You’re going to hear me talk about ‘Dear Blue‘ or ‘Project Blue’ or ‘my novel’ time and time again if you decide to read my mental health diary, Confessions. I’m not here to speak in code, so let’s get into it. Dear Blue came to me when I was in between my second and third …
It’s been brought to my attention by a couple of different therapists over the last few years that I don’t find joy in many things or experiences. “What do you do for self-care? Or to relax?” they asked. “What makes you happy?” A short list The list is so short that the first time I …