I had a dream this morning that Cat made me roll five d6s (standard dice) to determine my energy levels for the day. Silly though this dream may be, it captures the reality of my days: a dice roll.
Yesterday I woke up with absolutely no energy whatsoever. Truly, I accomplished NOTHING on my ‘to do’ list, apart from sweeping the rabbit room. But that was fine because yesterday was Sunday. Everyone is allowed to take a break on a Sunday. It’s a ‘get out of jail free’ card… or a ‘stay in bed all day’ card. So that’s what I did. I stayed in bed and consumed media.
I revisited one of my favourite shows, The Bold Type, and started the new Dahmer series with Cat (a pretty sickening affair). We also caught up on Bake Off while I ate dinner and dessert lying down. I read articles, I brainstormed, I played with Trello, I browsed social media, I did some online window shopping. It was, all in all, the perfect way to spend yesterday.
But today’s not Sunday. Today is Monday. The start of the week, and the day that sets the tone for the next seven days. Sadly, the dice were cruel and today I woke up feeling very nauseous and, again, pretty low energy. I awoke at 10:30 which isn’t too terrible but I felt so poorly that it’s now 13:30 and I’m still only straying away from bed for a few minutes at a time.
Sadly, today’s ‘to do’ list is pretty hefty and I know that most of it will have to be ignored. However, I’m hoping to implement a new list strategy that I’ve picked up from a YouTuber which might make me feel a little bit better about what I can feasibly do.
A list of lists (stolen from Struthless)
The strategy involves writing five lists: an ‘if I’m killing it’ list, a ‘bare minimum’ list, a ‘weekly to do’ list, an ‘ongoing life admin’ list and a ‘big picture’ list. I think that’s pretty self-explanatory, but I’m hoping that by allowing myself to have a ‘bare minimum’ list I might be able to feel better about the days when I’ve done very little.
So that’s the first thing I’m going to make myself do today (apart from writing this Confession) because it’s something I can do from bed. The days tend to run smoother when I can start them from bed. Plus, lists sooth me. They make me feel more in control, so this is one admin job that I think I’ll really enjoy.
One for the list
I had also hoped to share this website on social media today. That’s something that should only take about three minutes to do but I’m not sure if I have the emotional energy to know that it’s out there. But I’ll try. It feels like it’s time.