I’ve been out of work for just over two months now and I think it’s time to establish a routine. Becoming okay My days have been blank canvases, and that’s suited me as I’ve pulled myself more and more together in the face of depression. There have been days when I’ve woken up and felt …
My quest for joy continues and I’m happy to report that, despite some real ups and downs along the way, I’m starting to find joy in an old love: D&D. D&D never quite made it to the list of three key things I wanted to do more of as I navigate this depressive episode, but …
If I’m not mistaken, today is already shaping up to be a better day than yesterday; the pain in my head has basically disappeared and I am cautiously optimistic. But it seems like a good time to give some backstory on what it is that I’m physically feeling. Cut back to August 2020 It was …
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The meds are doing their job, I believe, because today I think my emotional responses are fully on mute. There’s a lot piling up and I know normally this kind of thing would cause an extreme reaction in me. But today, I’m hardly reacting at all. In fact, I feel numb. Broke AF Maybe it’s …
If you’re a writer, you probably already know all about NaNoWriMo, the annual challenge for writers to hit 50,000 in a month. But if you’re not a writer or you want to know a little bit more about the month that’s in it, you can check out this article for a little more detail. A …
During this depressive episode of mine, I need so much sleep it feels like maybe I should hibernate. Me versus sleep My relationship with sleep has always been very love-hate. I’m one of those people who totally subscribes to the line about getting up at 5AM to live your most productive life. I’m also someone …
I’ve spent most of today entirely overwhelmed because I tried to sort my errands into ‘to do’ lists for the next three days and there were a lot more items than I was expecting. I never knew you could have too many lists I was warned by a few different people not to make too …
You often hear people give words like ‘moist’, ‘phlegm’ or ‘mucus’ as their least favourite in the English language, but for me it’s always been ‘vulnerable’. To me, it’s basically a curse word. I guess it’s less to do with the word and more to do with the feeling that descends on me as I …
I had a dream this morning that Cat made me roll five d6s (standard dice) to determine my energy levels for the day. Silly though this dream may be, it captures the reality of my days: a dice roll. Sunday Funday Yesterday I woke up with absolutely no energy whatsoever. Truly, I accomplished NOTHING on …
I’ve referenced this a few times now but haven’t yet had the heart to admit in writing that I’m taking some time off work. It sucks, especially for a productivity-addict like me, but I had to do it. I was suffering and so was my work. I’m incredibly fortunate to (a) have a job, (b) …